Indestructible

Indestructible was a awesome book and also extremely confusing, and disorienting, even more so, I think, than Omaha Bigelow.  One thing I found interesting was the narrative arc.  Are we supposed to find that any change has taken place? The chapters seem to be organized around years of junior high and high school.  Several chapters started with phrases like “Sophomore year I dissected my reservations…” ch.12, or “by my second to last year of school…” ch.13.  or “the spring before I turned seventeen..” The book also progresses in chronological order, starting with her 11th birthday, which I marks the beginning of Cristy’s adolescence, and ending with the the summer before her last year of high school, when she is 17. (so not ending with high school graduation or some landmark like that…) It actually ends with her friend Desiree’s death.

So I would say the book is clearly a coming-of-age novel, in that she talks about her process of growing up and maturing, the lessons she has learned: “growing up happens with each heartbeat…we learn a lesson from every mistake, every apology, every assumption at love…”ch15.  In this sense, it is what I expect from the coming of age novel.  On the other hand, I think it is also different from what one would expect in a coming of age novel.  There is not a climactic moment, there is not a central challenge that she struggles with and then beats.  The story does not provide a clear cut end that says “she has arrived; she is whole; she has made it! She beat her demons!”  It lets you know that she will be continuing this process into the future.

The end of the book reminds you not as much of what she has accomplished but of how she has survived.  Cristy talks about how she learned survival from Desiree.  In addition, the “bright side” that Cristy finds is that “we haven’t self-destructed at seventeen.  We must be doing okay for never having had a normal haircut, a clear conscience, or rich parents.” ch.15.  Her optimism, and her reflections, revolve around not self-destructing, around surviving.  The main point of the ending is “I’m making it in a hostile world, I’m surviving…” This is definitely not your typical narrative of progress and coming-of-age.

I also find it interesting when she contemplates the future.  Cristy says “I knew the sky was the limit to an indefinite number of mistakes, brilliance, girlfriends, boyfriends, delight, and squander.  Success was redefined this time.”  Boundless opportunity is the American dream, so I find it funny when she says the sky is the limit on…mistakes.  These limitless things are not the typical limitless things of the American dream, like property, money, happiness.  The rest of her choices for indefinite are interesting as well. girlfriends and boyfriends, for example.  I think it speaks to her faith, on one hand, that there are endless people out there to forge meaningful connections with.  On the other hand, the excess of girlfriends and boyfriends is I think kind of queer. I think you could say slutty is a kind of queer.  We talk about in class how queer is often an excess or a lack of something.  In this case the stated overabundance of girlfriends and boyfriends is an example of that.  Also interesting: squander? When she is poor, what does she have to squander? That I wondered about.  Brilliance was easy to see in her comebacks to her teachers, and delight in her interactions with friends and enthusiasm about music.

Speaking of squandering, at one point Cristy says, “we’re young. we’re allowed to fuck up sometimes.” Desiree, who knows she will die before 18 says, “it’s not really that way for me..I don’t want to have time to waste.” ch1o.  Knowing that she has more time is a way for Cristy to forgive herself and not judge herself. Or is it a way to sooth cognitive dissonance about the way a creep is treating her and that she still has something to do with him?

Indestructible is a good title for a novel that is about survival.  This book varies from pointed critique to rambling and talking in circles.  Reading for this progressive model, I keep hearing her say, “and then I learned this,” but in reality I find the situations to be quite similar to the previous situations she described. do you think things change over the course of the book? Does Cristy change?  Is there some kind of resolution?

In further reflection on this question, I wanted to contextualize the questions of “is this a coming of age novel?” in terms of previous discussion about “ethnic minority” literature and bildungsroman, or the “genre of the novel which focuses on the psychological and moral growth of the protagonist from youth to adulthood.” (wikipedia) I wanted to cite something we read in Trauma in Asian American literature, by Shelley Sunn Wong.  She says:

In the relationship between minority and majority cultures, maturity, and the political and symbolic power that accrues therein, is always assigned to the majority.  Minority culture, or that which is ‘incompletely developed historically’ (Lloyd, 17), is consequently viewed within the terms of a Bildung that can only aspire to, and more ineluctably toward, the valorized maturity of the majority culture. (105)

So when looking at Indestructible as a “minority” text, what does it mean if it doesn’t seem to follow the traditional narrative arc of clearly reaching some type of maturity that was not originally present? Or do you think the protagonist does reach that maturity? Is maturity as defined by “majority” culture inaccessible to the protagonist? Does this book critique middle class white America’s notions of maturity?

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4 thoughts on “Indestructible

  1. The protagonist doesnt reach maturity, but she exists self-loathing, which was the goal——- humanizing mistakes is the goal.

  2. I dont believe that this piece really needed a climax nor a moment of success nor any type of category. I feel that the authour did not want to box in this piece into any categories or subdivisions and just wanted to tell the story of a latina punk and how she used her elements of race, class, sexual identity, and culture to get by as a non comforming queer teen. Along with this, I also feel that the authour wanted to get readers to analyze and look into themselves as they read this story for self reflection and critique, and so that stories like these arent left unhidden or voices quieted. Road wanted those who challenged people like the main character, to see their wrongdoing through this story by understanding.

  3. I really enjoyed reading Indestructible because it was so unique compared to other novels about Latina adolescence. The way Cristy Roads illustrates the problems this queer Latin@ teenager deals with is amazing. Creating her book like some sort of zine and yearbook at the end of the novel is also very interesting. I loved the way Cristy just talks about her sexuality and the way she interacts with other people her age. I felt empowered when she confronted her Sex Ed teacher about the ways in which they were teaching sexual education. She touches upon a very important part of teenage years in which teenagers should be taught safe sex instead of just having sex for procreation. Looking back at my sexual education experience I just remembered my teacher trying to scare us with STDs but we never thought that would happen to us. Never did they mention contraceptives (I mean I did go to a Catholic high school with a black and Latino student population) but there are other schools that aren’t catholic that don’t do this either. Sexual education needs to be improved in high school and I’m glad it was addressed in a novel.

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